I discuss with my friend via whats App , its about love thing… he said why love gonna big problem of yours in the future …? and then I said.. umm i don’t know better i’m not thinking much about it…
He said to me : OK, tell me one thing , if u marry me won’t u be able to love me? ummm…. I don’t know , that’s way I tell u better to not thinking much, we re spending the time too much to around in every place its made deep memory when u see that’s place.
Him : No, it’s not like that sarah , time is the best healer , people often forget there past when they find better partner and that’s way my own experience.
(I’m thinking) I dont know why he argue about my opinion.. I know he older than me, that’s way its look easy by him.
Him : didn’t I tell u it’s your age not your fault , too young to deal with things like this your hormones plays a big part in this as u grow u less produce this hormones and u start thinking in rite direction. more practical than emotional
(i got headache… 😦 ) Me : I always crying thinking about it
Him : Nothing to worry, if we re still friends let’s say after 4 or 5 years then u won’t tell me the same thing
Me : I don’t know, but how if I will tell the same thing
Him : U grow mature as the time passes by , I know and I’m sure about this, just u need to stay away from your ex bf if u wanna make it happened
Me : I can’t runaway from him, he always text me and giving all caring as he had
Him : That’s the problem , u fill even more guilty , that’s he is good guy .. me and my family is not being fare to him , am I rite? do u feel like that?
Me : Yes , he’s too kind, I don’t know how can he still loving me even my family had rude..insult him and do everything bad thing
Him : ummmm (thinking) ask him what does he wants he knows it’s not going to happened and if he still wants to carry on with u like this then ask him what’s a plan?
Me : (think deeply ) I had ask him , and then he said no plan , he just want to accompany me till found new love… it’s hard to thinking about it.
Him : It’s gonna work like that my dear
Me : WHY? (tears on my eyes)
Him : simple honey! he is there all the time in ur mind and ur heart there want be a even a little place for someone else.
He describe the illustrate
I CAN’T PUT MORE MILK IN A CUP WHICH IS ALREADY FULL , CAN U ?
it’s like that, cup need to be empty first, no matter how tasty that milk is but u have to empty it…
Him : just kick out all the filling for him and start new chapter of life…..
I describe my illustrate
how can I kick out him , EVEN NO ONE TRY TO GIVE ME A BEST MILK IN MY CUP AND THEN HE ALWAYS FILL IT WHEN IT’S GOING TO EMPTY, HOW CAN … AND HOW THE WAY I TRY TO FORGETTING HIM… MUST I TAKE A NEW GLASS? IMPOSSIBLE….
Him : If I were him I would have take u away from ur family man what’s a big deal, if u two like each other then who cares about family they come right in the end…
Me : come right in the end ? how can u result like that… My family is not simple minded like u think . . . it’s difficult to say…
and then… all of our discussion ended without any good idea…
we re still hold hand each other with a broke heart . . .